Gaite Gaite Nama Ki Dasa
Sri Siksastaka Song 7
gāite
gāite nāma ki daśā hoilo `kṛṣṇa-nitya-dāsa
mui' hṛdoye sphurilo
What was my condition after repeatedly chanting the holy name? The realization that "I am the eternal servant of Krsna" spontaneously became manifest within my heart.
jānilām
māyā-pāśe e jaḍa-jagate govinda-virahe
duḥkha pāi nānā-mate
I realized that I was ensnared in the noose of maya's illusion, being trapped within this dull mundane universe, and that I simply experience misery in various ways due to separation from Lord Govinda.
ār
je saṁsāra mor nāhi lāge bhālo kāhā
jāi' kṛṣṇa heri--e cintā viśālo
Furthermore, I realized that I do not like this worldly existence. "Where can I go to see Krsna?"-this was my great anxiety.
kāṅdite
kāṅdite mor āṅkhi-variśoy varṣā-dhārā
heno cakṣe hoilo udoy
Crying and crying, tears poured from my eyes, appearing just like torrents of rain in the monsoon season.
nimeṣe
hoilo mora śata-yuga-sam govinda-viraha
ār sahite akṣam
Unable to bear separation from Lord Govinda any longer, for me the passing of a moment became like a hundred long ages.
śūnya
dharā-tala, caudike dekhiye, parāna
udāsa hoy ki
kori, ki kori, sthira nāhi hoy, jīvana
nāhiko roy
As I look about in all directions, the surface of the earth appears to be void, and my very life-breath feels empty. What am I doing? What am I doing? I do not feel at all tranquil, and the life within my body is slipping away.
braja-bāsī-gaṇ, mora prāna rākho, dekhāo
śrī-rādhā-nāthe bhakativinoda, minati māniyā, laohe
tāhāre sāthe
O residents of Vraja-dhama! Please save my life and show me the Lord of Sri Radha! Oh, please consider the prayers of this Bhaktivinoda and take him into His company!
śrī-kṛṣṇa-viraha
ār sahite nā pāri parān
chāḍite ār din dui cāri
I am unable to further tolerate this separation from my Lord Sri Krsna and am ready to give up my life in two days or four.
Translation
What was my condition after repeatedly chanting the holy name? The realization that "I am the eternal servant of Krsna" spontaneously became manifest within my heart.
I realized that I was ensnared in the noose of maya's illusion, being trapped within this dull mundane universe, and that I simply experience misery in various ways due to separation from Lord Govinda.
Furthermore, I realized that I do not like this worldly existence. "Where can I go to see Krsna?"-this was my great anxiety.
Crying and crying, tears poured from my eyes, appearing just like torrents of rain in the monsoon season.
Unable to bear separation from Lord Govinda any longer, for me the passing of a moment became like a hundred long ages.
As I look about in all directions, the surface of the earth appears to be void, and my very life-breath feels empty. What am I doing? What am I doing? I do not feel at all tranquil, and the life within my body is slipping away.
O residents of Vraja-dhama! Please save my life and show me the Lord of Sri Radha! Oh, please consider the prayers of this Bhaktivinoda and take him into His company!
I am unable to further tolerate this separation from my Lord Sri Krsna and am ready to give up my life in two days or four.