Ore Mana Karmer Kuhare Gelo Kal
Upalabdhi : Anutapa-laksana-upalabdhi Song 3
ore mana, karmer kuhare gelo kal svargadi sukher ase,
porilam karma- phanse, urnanabhi-sama karma- jal
Oh my dear mind! What shall I say to you now? All my time has been spent inside the deep pit of fruitive activities. With high hopes of future happiness in the heavenly planets, I have fallen into the trap of fruitive actions and reaction, which is exactly like the entangling web of a spider.
upavasa-brata dhori', nana kaya-klesa kori ',
bhasme ghrta daliya apar marilam nija dose,
jara-maraner phanse, hoibare narinu uddhar
Observing many different types of austere vows and fasting to achieve some future heavenly goal, I thus performed such useless physical labor for no real tangible result. This was just like pouring oblations of ghee onto dry ashes only. Now I am being strangled within the noose of karma, being destroyed by my own foolish nonsense. And the only result is that I have not been able to deliver myself from this predicament.
barnasrama -dharma yaji', nana deba-debi bhaji ',
mada-garve katainu jibana sthira na hoilo mana,
na labhinu santi-dhana, na bhyajinu sri-krsna-carana
I conducted many sacrifices in honor of many different demigods and goddesses, as is recommended for householders in the varnasrama -dharma system. But by doing this I only became so puffed up that I wasted my whole life in such delirious pride. I never got any peace of mind by doing all this, for I completely missed out on the golden treasure of spiritual satisfaction. So much trouble I underwent because I never worshiped the beautiful lotus feet of Sri Krsna!
dhik mor e jibane, dhik mor dhana-jane,
dhik mor barna-abhimana dhik mor kula-mane,
dhik sastra adhyayane, hari-bhakti na pailo sthana
Therefore to hell with my whole life! To hell with all my wealth and followers! To hell with my caste-pride! To hell with all my so-called dignity of family prestige! To hell with my studies of the karma- khanda scriptures, for I have not become fixed up in pure devotion to Lord Hari!
Translation
Oh my dear mind! What shall I say to you now? All my time has been spent inside the deep pit of fruitive activities. With high hopes of future happiness in the heavenly planets, I have fallen into the trap of fruitive actions and reaction, which is exactly like the entangling web of a spider.
Observing many different types of austere vows and fasting to achieve some future heavenly goal, I thus performed such useless physical labor for no real tangible result. This was just like pouring oblations of ghee onto dry ashes only. Now I am being strangled within the noose of karma, being destroyed by my own foolish nonsense. And the only result is that I have not been able to deliver myself from this predicament.
I conducted many sacrifices in honor of many different demigods and goddesses, as is recommended for householders in the varnasrama -dharma system. But by doing this I only became so puffed up that I wasted my whole life in such delirious pride. I never got any peace of mind by doing all this, for I completely missed out on the golden treasure of spiritual satisfaction. So much trouble I underwent because I never worshiped the beautiful lotus feet of Sri Krsna!
Therefore to hell with my whole life! To hell with all my wealth and followers! To hell with my caste-pride! To hell with all my so-called dignity of family prestige! To hell with my studies of the karma- khanda scriptures, for I have not become fixed up in pure devotion to Lord Hari!