Visaya Basana Rupa Citter Bikar
Ucchvasa : Prarthana Dainyamayi Song 4
visaya-basana rupa citter bikar
amar hrdoye bhoga ka're anibar
The delusion rooted deep into my heart has taken the shape of desires for sense gratification. Thus in my heart I am constantly trying to enjoy.
je kota jatana ami korilam hay na gelo bikar,
bujhi sese prana jay
Alas! How much endeavor have I made for such enjoyment? My delusions have not gone away, and I understand that now in the end my life is departing.
e ghor bikar more korilo asthira santi na pailo sthan,
antara adhira
This ghastly delusion has made me extremely restless. I have not achieved any peace, and I am most disturbed at heart.
sri rupa goswami more krpa bitariya
uddharibe kabe jukta-bairagya arpiya
When will Srila Rupa Gosvami bestow his mercy upon me? When will he deliver me by bestowing upon me yukta vairagya? (The science of renunciation which dovetails all favorable things in devotional service.)
kabe sanatana more chadaye bisoy
nityanande samarpibe haiya sadoy
When will Srila Sanatana Gosvami cause me to give up this materialistic sense gratification? Being gracious to me, he will offer me in devotion to Lord Nityananda Prabhu.
sri jiba goswami kabe siddhanta-salile nivaibe tarkanala,
citta jahe jwale
When will Srila Jiva Gosvami pour the waters of his strong conclusive truths and thereby extinguish the fire of false arguments that burns my heart?
sri-caitanya-nama sune udibe pulaka
radha-krsnamrta-pane haibo asoka
My jubilation will arise when I hear the chanting of the holy name of Sri Krsna Caitanya, and by drinking the nectar of Radha-Krsna I will become free from all of my lamentations.
kangaler sukangal durjana e jana
baisnaba-caransroy jace akincana
This rogue is not only wicked amongst the wicked, but is the most wretched amongst the wretched. Therefore he now begs for the shelter of the lotus feet of all the Vaisnavas.
Translation
The delusion rooted deep into my heart has taken the shape of desires for sense gratification. Thus in my heart I am constantly trying to enjoy.
Alas! How much endeavor have I made for such enjoyment? My delusions have not gone away, and I understand that now in the end my life is departing.
This ghastly delusion has made me extremely restless. I have not achieved any peace, and I am most disturbed at heart.
When will Srila Rupa Gosvami bestow his mercy upon me? When will he deliver me by bestowing upon me yukta vairagya? (The science of renunciation which dovetails all favorable things in devotional service.)
When will Srila Sanatana Gosvami cause me to give up this materialistic sense gratification? Being gracious to me, he will offer me in devotion to Lord Nityananda Prabhu.
When will Srila Jiva Gosvami pour the waters of his strong conclusive truths and thereby extinguish the fire of false arguments that burns my heart?
My jubilation will arise when I hear the chanting of the holy name of Sri Krsna Caitanya, and by drinking the nectar of Radha-Krsna I will become free from all of my lamentations.
This rogue is not only wicked amongst the wicked, but is the most wretched amongst the wretched. Therefore he now begs for the shelter of the lotus feet of all the Vaisnavas.